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Sunday, September 6, 2009
Sorry Guys for not posting, i have no time. So much has changed for me in the workshop. It was truely an amazing experience. thank you so much to everyone that supported me.
Friday, September 4, 2009
The Second Day Has Passed. So Inspiring. So Motivating. So Emotional.
My Heart was filled with a lot of regret and disappointment. Tears rolled down my cheek, each representing the guilt i feel. For the first time ever in my life, i actually believed in myself and cast away my greatest fear, Judgment. When Trainer Amin told as to listen and sing along to Mariah Carey's Hero, It was the first time i ever sang out loud--> For anyone to hear that is.
I didn't care what people think. I Love singing, i should do it. That is best thing i have gotten from this workshop, in addition to the wonderful learning techniques too... :)
Anyways, After Hearing Hero, I Cant Stop singing it. I Started to sing another song the meant alot to me too. A Song that says what i Want to do... It Is Pretty Much EVERYTHING that i have got from this workshop.It goes like this:(Lyrics)
I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish guy you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone
It's over now
I cant go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control
I start again go back to one
I'm running things my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone
I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I dont care if Im right or wrong
Ill live my life the way I feel
No matter what Im gonna keep it real you know
Its time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid
This is the Song if you want to listen:
Here
This Course Has influence me so much. But the sad thing is, I wanted to speak up and raise my hand to speak about myself. But always, my fear of judgment held me down and when i finally gather enough courage to raise my hand, someone else did it first. I have to work on that alone. i had so many ideas to talk about.
All my emotions bottled inside me, i feel like i'm going to explode. I'm really not exaggerating. I will just shout LOUD, if i really can't hold all this emotions back.
My Heart was filled with a lot of regret and disappointment. Tears rolled down my cheek, each representing the guilt i feel. For the first time ever in my life, i actually believed in myself and cast away my greatest fear, Judgment. When Trainer Amin told as to listen and sing along to Mariah Carey's Hero, It was the first time i ever sang out loud--> For anyone to hear that is.
I didn't care what people think. I Love singing, i should do it. That is best thing i have gotten from this workshop, in addition to the wonderful learning techniques too... :)
Anyways, After Hearing Hero, I Cant Stop singing it. I Started to sing another song the meant alot to me too. A Song that says what i Want to do... It Is Pretty Much EVERYTHING that i have got from this workshop.It goes like this:(Lyrics)
I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish guy you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone
It's over now
I cant go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control
I start again go back to one
I'm running things my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone
I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I dont care if Im right or wrong
Ill live my life the way I feel
No matter what Im gonna keep it real you know
Its time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid
This is the Song if you want to listen:
Here
This Course Has influence me so much. But the sad thing is, I wanted to speak up and raise my hand to speak about myself. But always, my fear of judgment held me down and when i finally gather enough courage to raise my hand, someone else did it first. I have to work on that alone. i had so many ideas to talk about.
All my emotions bottled inside me, i feel like i'm going to explode. I'm really not exaggerating. I will just shout LOUD, if i really can't hold all this emotions back.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
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Does these words seems familiar?
So Inspirational. So Success Driving.
Just Finished the first day of motivational Workshop..
Trainers (,Or instructors, which ever...) Are:
-Amin
-Ben Ong
-Danny
Its was like a day of constant laughter... Humor in all ways possible.
All have their respective ways of sharing the information,
but the message they invoke are equal important.
That's why i have decided to post something after a long time.
I have something to admit. to confess...
Wow... Its really hard... i wish i could talk to somebody about how i feel.
But "It" is holding me back...
What is "it", you ask?
I'm not ready to reveal it. It's a form, Starting with the letter 'J', that makes up about 95% of fear. It has manifested so much over the years... Now, So Big that i don't even know if i can defeat it.
Anyways, i'd better get to the point..
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What has been holding me back all these years...
Like the trainer, Amin, had said: Fear of disappointment.(If i'm right..)
That is true...
I constantly feel the pressure... The Heartache.
However, i assume unlike most of you, my fear comes from losing...
Most of you just wants to go to a good school so your future will be set.. You can have a good life.
But that barely is the reason for me to motivated myself.
For the 1st half of my sec 4 year, 2009, I kept telling myself if i studied hard i can have a very good future....
But as time went by, i realised something. i have no intentions for the future. All i wanted to do is to be the best that i can be.
Just the thought of losing to people Kills me. I'm not saying i'm superior than others.
When Melvin Or Jue Ping Beats me in a certain subject, I feel like my heart has been ripped apart.
I started to get so angry at myself for not bothering to study harder...
When i'm with friends, i tell them i blame the teacher for setting the paper too hard...
Cause i thought that was normal. But in actual fact, i blame myself. I Might not show that i care when i make a careless mistake or made a mistake because i didn't study, i'm actually torned inside.
i've been made fun alot, and i think that's enough...
So, i try to act like i don't care...
None of my friends even seem to understand my feelings at times, but i don't blame them.
i don't express my feelings around them anyways...
Anyways, The thing i want to admit is that... I haven't been studying... I'm damn serious. i slack off everyday, playing games or watching television. Somehow, i managed 4 A1s.. And 2 C5s... It'd up to you to believe it. But thing is, For the past years and months, i have been getting high marks because the questions that came out are things that i have learnt.
So, I'm lucky. But will my luck run out by O levels? i don't know. And that is why i'm going to ask one of my trainers tmr.
I have no idea why things keep working out.
Is it because i know alot? Which i think i don't.
Is it because i'm lucky? Which i think i am.
Or is it because i'm actually gifted? Which i really Doubt i am.
So many more questions. So little time.
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Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
-------------------------------------------------------------
Does these words seems familiar?
So Inspirational. So Success Driving.
Just Finished the first day of motivational Workshop..
Trainers (,Or instructors, which ever...) Are:
-Amin
-Ben Ong
-Danny
Its was like a day of constant laughter... Humor in all ways possible.
All have their respective ways of sharing the information,
but the message they invoke are equal important.
That's why i have decided to post something after a long time.
I have something to admit. to confess...
Wow... Its really hard... i wish i could talk to somebody about how i feel.
But "It" is holding me back...
What is "it", you ask?
I'm not ready to reveal it. It's a form, Starting with the letter 'J', that makes up about 95% of fear. It has manifested so much over the years... Now, So Big that i don't even know if i can defeat it.
Anyways, i'd better get to the point..
---------------------------------------------------------------
What has been holding me back all these years...
Like the trainer, Amin, had said: Fear of disappointment.(If i'm right..)
That is true...
I constantly feel the pressure... The Heartache.
However, i assume unlike most of you, my fear comes from losing...
Most of you just wants to go to a good school so your future will be set.. You can have a good life.
But that barely is the reason for me to motivated myself.
For the 1st half of my sec 4 year, 2009, I kept telling myself if i studied hard i can have a very good future....
But as time went by, i realised something. i have no intentions for the future. All i wanted to do is to be the best that i can be.
Just the thought of losing to people Kills me. I'm not saying i'm superior than others.
When Melvin Or Jue Ping Beats me in a certain subject, I feel like my heart has been ripped apart.
I started to get so angry at myself for not bothering to study harder...
When i'm with friends, i tell them i blame the teacher for setting the paper too hard...
Cause i thought that was normal. But in actual fact, i blame myself. I Might not show that i care when i make a careless mistake or made a mistake because i didn't study, i'm actually torned inside.
i've been made fun alot, and i think that's enough...
So, i try to act like i don't care...
None of my friends even seem to understand my feelings at times, but i don't blame them.
i don't express my feelings around them anyways...
Anyways, The thing i want to admit is that... I haven't been studying... I'm damn serious. i slack off everyday, playing games or watching television. Somehow, i managed 4 A1s.. And 2 C5s... It'd up to you to believe it. But thing is, For the past years and months, i have been getting high marks because the questions that came out are things that i have learnt.
So, I'm lucky. But will my luck run out by O levels? i don't know. And that is why i'm going to ask one of my trainers tmr.
I have no idea why things keep working out.
Is it because i know alot? Which i think i don't.
Is it because i'm lucky? Which i think i am.
Or is it because i'm actually gifted? Which i really Doubt i am.
So many more questions. So little time.
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